I had to physically sit upright to reply to this. WOW!! This was well worth the wait. There were so many lines I just adored: "the returning is the work" "forward-leaning center of mass" "speed gives the impression of progress" all of which are now entering my internal lexicon. I related to a lot of what you wrote and thought about how I've been trying to notice and regulate myself when I start to show signs of dysregulation (autistic) and I found that I was needing to regulate at the strangest times (all the time). I started myself peeling my eggs slower, brushing my teeth slower. And then like you wrote, the space it leaves to think about the things weighed down by meaning and desire; it's like we have no choice but to live in the questions rather than the immediate answers. Great insight! Never stop writing.
The image of you sitting upright to reply made me smile. That’s the highest honor.
It means a lot that those lines landed for you. And I really appreciate you sharing your own experience of slowing down in such specific ways: peeling eggs slower, brushing your teeth slower. That’s such a real, embodied version of this.
“live in the questions” —> I might have to borrow that one from you!
I had to physically sit upright to reply to this. WOW!! This was well worth the wait. There were so many lines I just adored: "the returning is the work" "forward-leaning center of mass" "speed gives the impression of progress" all of which are now entering my internal lexicon. I related to a lot of what you wrote and thought about how I've been trying to notice and regulate myself when I start to show signs of dysregulation (autistic) and I found that I was needing to regulate at the strangest times (all the time). I started myself peeling my eggs slower, brushing my teeth slower. And then like you wrote, the space it leaves to think about the things weighed down by meaning and desire; it's like we have no choice but to live in the questions rather than the immediate answers. Great insight! Never stop writing.
The image of you sitting upright to reply made me smile. That’s the highest honor.
It means a lot that those lines landed for you. And I really appreciate you sharing your own experience of slowing down in such specific ways: peeling eggs slower, brushing your teeth slower. That’s such a real, embodied version of this.
“live in the questions” —> I might have to borrow that one from you!
Thank you for reading so closely. Truly.